The Life of John Gable (from his handler)
Oct 6, 2016 19:40:12 GMT -6
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Post by John Gable on Oct 6, 2016 19:40:12 GMT -6
So, when I started John Gable, it was a recovery from another character that I felt I did shittily. The one thing with this old character was that I did this one RP where he talked about a movie (Hara-Kiri, in case you are wondering) and talked about the theatre then the town around it. What I found out is that I really liked talking about movies (surprise? Now, maybe not). So, while I was taking a break from e-fedding, I came up with this character who was an actor. It was kind of a joke on The Rock and other wrestlers becoming Hollywood actors. The idea was generally simple. A failed and black balled actor attempts to save his career by going into wrestling after seeing some wrestlers being brought in for movies, thinking this would be an easy fast track to get back into Hollywood. The idea was he was going to be a Paul Dano 'There Will Be Blood' type with a manage who would be a joke on 1930-40's movie characters. Well, things changed drastically over all.
Slowly as I moved along with this character I did certain things without realizing it. I gave him friends, I gave him enthusiasm, and I gave him a positive upswing to an extent. I wrote promos that were more movie scenes and he would kind of fit his shoot in the context of the world or break off of it at one point to straight address the opposition. But overall it was just an actor gimmick...until I started taking things from him. I took his upswing, I took his friends, and I destroyed his enthusiasm. He soon became more like Daniel Day-Lewis's character in 'There Will Be Blood', cynical, paranoid and alone.
If I may break from John Gable for a second, I would like to give better context (don't worry, this will all be brought to a point of some kind but a little digression is needed). Around the time I formed John Gable, I was in probably in one of the worst mental periods of my life. There was a lot of grieving and a lot of anger that went uncheck for many reasons. I started out as one person (a libertarian, Darwinist Christian who just loved freewill and was ignorant to a lot of suffering) and eventually led to a person I am today (a more liberal, athiest determinist nihilist who is not to fond of the world or people). John Gable was there the whole time. I translated a lot of my existential crises, my paranoid feelings, my deepening depression, my fear of failure and inevitable pain through Gable (not to forget that I was also fueled by energy drinks, cigarettes, and weed at the time (all of which I have quit)) And so to a point Gable was an outlet to me. He is a legit part of my mind that I will never get rid of even if I totally stop e-fedding.
This led to a lot of hot headed and very low point thoughts. There were times I hated Gable and there were points I loved Gable. I would give him nice things, but only to tear them away, all at the same time making him a more bitter and disconnected individual. To a point, the experiment was to see how terrible a person I could make but still see if he could be sympathetic. I imagine if Gable was a real person, he would spend every night crying himself to sleep and sometimes I feel bad about it but in it I discovered something.
We all have something or someone we love who others might find terrible or unbearable. We all defend these people or things because we know the goodness in them. Gable was my reputation of that. There were times, even in the darkest moments, where I would hint something good was inside of him. And when he seemingly had no friends left, there were three people in his life that looked past all the bad to see the good.
First was Hophni, my mystical character of infinite dimensions who loved all people because they were confused and lost. One of his personal favorite people was Gable for how good intentioned he was but how lost he was at the same time and how no one could see it. But he could hardly ever be there for him.
Second was Amanda Sonet, she was a performer who was a long time friend of Gable's and knew exactly how irritated and brooding Gable could be but always battled him on it, trying to keep him open to the world. She was the lone friend in his loneliest moments. She eventually died of Stomach Cancer and this event changed Gable forever.
Then third and last was Lisa. His co-star in a huge flop who he eventually married and in this most recent RP bared a child named Dorian Clark Gable. But things did not end so well there... you can read it here RP Link
The thing is Gable has become a hard character to right for as I can not hurt him like I used to. I have grown too soft on him and this last RP was the last thing (and maybe the most hurtful I can do.) And to be honest I am not sure if I will do another one or let this be the end. But the thing I hope people take away from him is that everyone deserves to be loved. Everyone deserves patience even at their worst. Humans suffer poorly and it is up to us not to continue it. There is so much I wanted to go over in his history in this post but I will leave it at this for there is too much. Gable will forever be me and I forever Gable. As I continue with other characters, none will achieve his spot in me. And I just want to say thank you to everyone for giving him a stage, giving him life. In him, I hold my transition and everything I now believe.
Even if this post means nothing to you. Thank you.
Slowly as I moved along with this character I did certain things without realizing it. I gave him friends, I gave him enthusiasm, and I gave him a positive upswing to an extent. I wrote promos that were more movie scenes and he would kind of fit his shoot in the context of the world or break off of it at one point to straight address the opposition. But overall it was just an actor gimmick...until I started taking things from him. I took his upswing, I took his friends, and I destroyed his enthusiasm. He soon became more like Daniel Day-Lewis's character in 'There Will Be Blood', cynical, paranoid and alone.
If I may break from John Gable for a second, I would like to give better context (don't worry, this will all be brought to a point of some kind but a little digression is needed). Around the time I formed John Gable, I was in probably in one of the worst mental periods of my life. There was a lot of grieving and a lot of anger that went uncheck for many reasons. I started out as one person (a libertarian, Darwinist Christian who just loved freewill and was ignorant to a lot of suffering) and eventually led to a person I am today (a more liberal, athiest determinist nihilist who is not to fond of the world or people). John Gable was there the whole time. I translated a lot of my existential crises, my paranoid feelings, my deepening depression, my fear of failure and inevitable pain through Gable (not to forget that I was also fueled by energy drinks, cigarettes, and weed at the time (all of which I have quit)) And so to a point Gable was an outlet to me. He is a legit part of my mind that I will never get rid of even if I totally stop e-fedding.
This led to a lot of hot headed and very low point thoughts. There were times I hated Gable and there were points I loved Gable. I would give him nice things, but only to tear them away, all at the same time making him a more bitter and disconnected individual. To a point, the experiment was to see how terrible a person I could make but still see if he could be sympathetic. I imagine if Gable was a real person, he would spend every night crying himself to sleep and sometimes I feel bad about it but in it I discovered something.
We all have something or someone we love who others might find terrible or unbearable. We all defend these people or things because we know the goodness in them. Gable was my reputation of that. There were times, even in the darkest moments, where I would hint something good was inside of him. And when he seemingly had no friends left, there were three people in his life that looked past all the bad to see the good.
First was Hophni, my mystical character of infinite dimensions who loved all people because they were confused and lost. One of his personal favorite people was Gable for how good intentioned he was but how lost he was at the same time and how no one could see it. But he could hardly ever be there for him.
Second was Amanda Sonet, she was a performer who was a long time friend of Gable's and knew exactly how irritated and brooding Gable could be but always battled him on it, trying to keep him open to the world. She was the lone friend in his loneliest moments. She eventually died of Stomach Cancer and this event changed Gable forever.
Then third and last was Lisa. His co-star in a huge flop who he eventually married and in this most recent RP bared a child named Dorian Clark Gable. But things did not end so well there... you can read it here RP Link
The thing is Gable has become a hard character to right for as I can not hurt him like I used to. I have grown too soft on him and this last RP was the last thing (and maybe the most hurtful I can do.) And to be honest I am not sure if I will do another one or let this be the end. But the thing I hope people take away from him is that everyone deserves to be loved. Everyone deserves patience even at their worst. Humans suffer poorly and it is up to us not to continue it. There is so much I wanted to go over in his history in this post but I will leave it at this for there is too much. Gable will forever be me and I forever Gable. As I continue with other characters, none will achieve his spot in me. And I just want to say thank you to everyone for giving him a stage, giving him life. In him, I hold my transition and everything I now believe.
Even if this post means nothing to you. Thank you.
