An Apology & Explanation
Apr 28, 2017 12:48:28 GMT -6
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Post by Deleted on Apr 28, 2017 12:48:28 GMT -6
Alright folks...
Here's the deal. As we all know I ended up no showing Beyond when I said that I didn't have any intentions of doing so. Regardless of the slump I was in, I said that I was going to post something and that was the truth. I had every intention of doing so, it just didn't work out like that sadly. However there's a reason for all of that.
The main reason has everything to do with the fact I am in my last year of college. I am supposed to be graduating on May 12th (just a few weeks from now). Well, the thing is I'm not very good when it comes to math. I fucking hate math and on the college level it's a pain in the ass. Long story short, I ended up not doing too well on a couple of tests. Which is now put me in a position where I practically have to ace my final to graduate. A final that takes place on May 10th and I'm meant to graduate 2 days later. The pressure has truly been on and it's stressed me out to the max, but the thing is I still have the chance to graduate. I just have to buckle down.
That's basically what my life has been. Each and every spare moment I get I find myself studying. I find myself doing everything that I possibly can to teach myself the material that needs to be taught to me in order to make all of this possible. That being said some people might think that if this was the case that I should have posted about it. I should have given the heads up that some things were more important. People might feel I should have said that I was going to no show, but truth be told. I still stick to my word. My intentions were to never no show. I had every intention to show.
In fact when I wasn't doing homework. I'd take a few moments a night to write anywhere between 500 words to a 1000 words during the time to roleplay. Problem is that every time I did so. Whatever the finished product was. I didn't like it and I'd end up deleting it. Only to find myself trying all over again. This continued to happen over and over again. Until it just got to the point that it was out of hand and there was nothing I could do that was going to put me in a position to have a complete rp or one that was even going to be worth posting/reading. I had always lived by the posting anything is better than nothing at all mentality and this time that just went out the window.
I honestly/truly apologize to the handler of Holmes who deserved to have me show and deserved to get a competitive match out of me. Good news is that you got something big out of it and can roll with it. Not all hope was lost there, but I know you deserved better. Here's hoping that sometime in the future. There's going to be a time and a place where a rematch of some kind can happen. As well as a situation where I can attempt to redeem myself. A big apology goes out to the people in charge/creating the storyline. You deserved a better pay off.
That being said the question would be what's next? Well a couple things were decided. First and foremost, I'll be DROPPING Damien Kingston. I have always liked the character and maybe I just need to give him sole effort, but things always end up where he takes a back burner or end up where things don't go as well as I have planned. Just seems like the right decision to go ahead and let go of him. Along with that though I have also decided that I am putting Mikey Carson on a HIATUS for the time being! I struggled too much within the last few months to try and force something to work. I think a small break and finding his voice so to speak is the best thing for me.
So that leads one to wonder. Is that it for me in UCI? Am I taking an extended break myself? Well, that did cross my mind but as I once said. I feel like after doing this so long. If I take a break of any kind, it's going to lead to me retiring. Which I'm not on board with because I still do want to write. After briefly talking to the man in charge. I've let it be known I'll be coming in with a character that I know without a single doubt I can play. I won't run into any issues with. It won't lead to me wanting to take a break or swamping later. I intend on having the contract up within a couple days. However it will not be all systems go for me until AFTER May 10th. I need to get through this final and find out if I am or am not graduating. That right now is by far the most important thing to me right now.
Thanks to all of those that are understanding.
-- Mike
Here's the deal. As we all know I ended up no showing Beyond when I said that I didn't have any intentions of doing so. Regardless of the slump I was in, I said that I was going to post something and that was the truth. I had every intention of doing so, it just didn't work out like that sadly. However there's a reason for all of that.
The main reason has everything to do with the fact I am in my last year of college. I am supposed to be graduating on May 12th (just a few weeks from now). Well, the thing is I'm not very good when it comes to math. I fucking hate math and on the college level it's a pain in the ass. Long story short, I ended up not doing too well on a couple of tests. Which is now put me in a position where I practically have to ace my final to graduate. A final that takes place on May 10th and I'm meant to graduate 2 days later. The pressure has truly been on and it's stressed me out to the max, but the thing is I still have the chance to graduate. I just have to buckle down.
That's basically what my life has been. Each and every spare moment I get I find myself studying. I find myself doing everything that I possibly can to teach myself the material that needs to be taught to me in order to make all of this possible. That being said some people might think that if this was the case that I should have posted about it. I should have given the heads up that some things were more important. People might feel I should have said that I was going to no show, but truth be told. I still stick to my word. My intentions were to never no show. I had every intention to show.
In fact when I wasn't doing homework. I'd take a few moments a night to write anywhere between 500 words to a 1000 words during the time to roleplay. Problem is that every time I did so. Whatever the finished product was. I didn't like it and I'd end up deleting it. Only to find myself trying all over again. This continued to happen over and over again. Until it just got to the point that it was out of hand and there was nothing I could do that was going to put me in a position to have a complete rp or one that was even going to be worth posting/reading. I had always lived by the posting anything is better than nothing at all mentality and this time that just went out the window.
I honestly/truly apologize to the handler of Holmes who deserved to have me show and deserved to get a competitive match out of me. Good news is that you got something big out of it and can roll with it. Not all hope was lost there, but I know you deserved better. Here's hoping that sometime in the future. There's going to be a time and a place where a rematch of some kind can happen. As well as a situation where I can attempt to redeem myself. A big apology goes out to the people in charge/creating the storyline. You deserved a better pay off.
That being said the question would be what's next? Well a couple things were decided. First and foremost, I'll be DROPPING Damien Kingston. I have always liked the character and maybe I just need to give him sole effort, but things always end up where he takes a back burner or end up where things don't go as well as I have planned. Just seems like the right decision to go ahead and let go of him. Along with that though I have also decided that I am putting Mikey Carson on a HIATUS for the time being! I struggled too much within the last few months to try and force something to work. I think a small break and finding his voice so to speak is the best thing for me.
So that leads one to wonder. Is that it for me in UCI? Am I taking an extended break myself? Well, that did cross my mind but as I once said. I feel like after doing this so long. If I take a break of any kind, it's going to lead to me retiring. Which I'm not on board with because I still do want to write. After briefly talking to the man in charge. I've let it be known I'll be coming in with a character that I know without a single doubt I can play. I won't run into any issues with. It won't lead to me wanting to take a break or swamping later. I intend on having the contract up within a couple days. However it will not be all systems go for me until AFTER May 10th. I need to get through this final and find out if I am or am not graduating. That right now is by far the most important thing to me right now.
Thanks to all of those that are understanding.
-- Mike
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